What are you currently hoping for?
In this season that you find yourself in, in the spheres of relationships, family, work, finances, health, perhaps even play: what are you currently hoping for?
And generally, do you trust that these things will come to pass? That it will happen or be given to you?
When we hope for something, we place the weight of our soul on it. We lean on it, rest on it. Where our treasure is, there our heart is as well. And those of us that believe our Heavenly Father will give us what we need or want, often cry out to God: Lord, I want this. Lord I need this. Please give it to me. And we put our faith in God that He will provide it. I mean, if He is a good father, he will, right?
I have recently had a week in which I decided to journey with God on a topic in my life where I’ve experienced disappointment. I was disappointed in God for not yet bringing to pass something that I’ve been hoping and praying for, for almost a decade now. And as I brought this before Him, He made me aware of something both deeply convicting and liberating.
I have placed the weight of my hope on what I wanted instead of placing it on Him. I had been resting on the goodness of what I was hoping and praying for, looking to see if God is good and faithful enough to bring it to pass – instead of resting on the fact that God is good, and trusting Him to define what is good and right and timely for me. Let me say that again. I’ve placed my trust in what I wanted and placed the question mark on God’s love and goodness, rather than placing my trust in God and the question mark (the discretion of whether this is what is good for me right now) on what I wanted…
Jesus addressed this exact disposition of ours when He said the following to His crowd of followers:
[Y]our Heavenly Father knows [what you need]. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.Jesus in Matthew 6:32a-33
Jesus invites those who seek to follow Him to place the weight of our hope on Him and His reign and rule in the world, knowing that He will give us what we need.
This is part of what it means to surrender the control of our lives to God; to die to ourselves, so that we may live in Him and He may live in us; to really and truly follow Jesus. And it starts with putting the weight of our hope – of all our hopes and dreams – on Him. It starts with trusting Him with the most precious treasures hidden in the deepest places of our soul. It’s vulnerable and it’s messy. You see, only the One who made you, only the One who knows the depths of who you are better than you do yourself, are worthy and able to carry the weight of your most cherished hopes.
In You, oh Lord, do I take refuge;Psalm 7:1-3
let me never be put to shame!
In Your righteousness deliver me and rescue me;
include Your ear to me, and save me!
Be to me a Rock of refuge,
to which I may continually come;
you have given the command to save me,
for You are my rock and my fortress.
What are you hoping for?
Would you be open to start bringing them to God? Perhaps set aside some time to identify 3 things you realise you’re hoping for, or may have hoped for for a long time and have become disappointed in. As you do this, start to reflect on where you have been placing the weight of your hope. Has God’s goodness been on trial in your heart? Would you start giving these hopes to our Father, and to trust Him with it? Perhaps make space to listen to what He has to say about it.
One thing I want to mention before closing is that, as sons and daughters of God, we are encouraged to be open and honest with our Father about what we want. He loves to engage with us on the desires of our heart, and we should never ever stop doing that. Even as we do that, though: if everything else were to be stripped away, the foundations of our being should rest firmly and unconditionally on God’s goodness and faithfulness. We can trust Him and wrestle with Him at the same time.
May you learn to rest on God with all your weight. And may you too find healing and freedom in those areas where you have experienced disappointment.
God bless you.